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Today was Insabear's memorial at the Jupiter... and after thinking about it long and hard [and taking some good advice from my bros] I decided to decline and be a no show.  I want to deal with his death in my own way and not go to an event that was organized by people who didn't really know him and re-write his history.  I just cannot do that.  I basically want to remember him as he was when we first met, when he was kind and loving towards me, and not the last years when he was just nasty.  I also do NOT want to be a hypocrite by showing up to play the bereaved ex-lover.  I'm a good actress, but not THAT good.  Today Hugo a Go-Go and I went to a 350 Unitarian Rally to bring awareness to the changing climate.  I wanted to do something to take my mind off the whole memorial thing, and concentrate on the present.  I have SO much to be happy about today, and I need to let the past go.  I have loving, beautiful people in my life now, a new business just getting started, a great apartment and in the process of looking for a little doggie.  I refuse to wallow in the past and think of what might have been... It was what it was and now it's over.  I had a great day today...and I plan to have many, many more. 

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350 Rally Video 1

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350 Rally Video 2

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350 Rally Video 3

I LOVE YOU BRO.

Well, the cops didn't bust us, exactly. They were just checking out the van, was all. We actually talked with them for a couple of minutes; I told them why we were there, and they told us about the hit at another cemetery, where 10 headstones had been almost totally destroyed... It was all good, bro; we weren't in any trouble.

The EVPs... Well, it's the first time I've been there where the people talking seemed displeased that we were there, and I'm pretty sure that has everything to do with the recent vandalism issue. I'm hoping to go back there again soon, if for no other reason than to just reassure the spirits that I'm not there to harm them....

Thanks for coming by, bro. It's always great to see you.

I admire you so much sweetheart you have such a good outlook and handle on your life, well done. You know where you want to go and you remember where you came from thats a lesson so many of us need to learn. You are open to new GOOD things for your life as well as as much LOVE as you can grab...wow thats just such a gift to yourself and the world. You are amazing really you are, I so love you! Wish we could be closer and hang out together

Thanks Bro. I don't know WHAT is going on - like someone at YT commented, maybe Charlie had gotten a toenail caught in the past or something, and now he avoids that area. **shrugs** I honestly don't know what Charlie's issue is. I mean, you would think that he'd be REALLY weirded out in the office, where all the activity was taking place. And yet, he wasn't. Now how bizarre is THAT, right? It definitely makes for some interesting discussion though, doesn't it?

Love you, Bro. Thanks for visitng me at the Tree, too.